Salim.

So I'm in Salim now, with the boys. Waiting for the Manchester United match to start, but I'm already falling asleep.. What is it with me and my inability to stay awake past 11.30? :/ I want the holidays back. I could sleep late, but most importantly wake up late.

On the up side, Sabah won against Kedah 2-1! SABAH HAWKS REPRESENT.

I've come to a conclusion, after the breakup I realized that my feelings for him werent fading.. As fast as I'd like them to be, mainly because I have to see him everyday, and because I hang out with people in places that remind me of everything we used to be and used to do. My phone password hasn't changed yet either. My god, I sound pathetic.

Truthfully? I just haven't gotten over him, because I'm not ready yet. It's as simple as that. The pain of the break up is still fresh, like it happened yesterday, and seeing him still brightens my day. It's funny how we said we could still be friends but now treat eachother like complete strangers.

"maybe that's just your way, of dealing with the pain, forgetting everything between our rise and fall.. Like we never loved at all."

Faith Hill always has songs that completely relate to the situation. It's frustrating. When you have so much to say but you can't say it.

There are moments where I just feel like picking up my phone and texting him but within that split second; I put my phone down and occupy myself with other things. I just wish someone would create a handbook for how to get over the people you really care(d) about. Sigh.