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From this:






all the way to









Yeah......... Story of my life.

this time, this place

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, 

never let me go.

1/3

I'm at Starbucks, KLIA.

(FINALLY!)

got lost several times just looking for the place! Uber LOL. Now i'm waiting for my connecting flight at 2100 :) nothing better than wasting the next four hours at starbucks, raping the internet & bothering friends on whatsapp.

Everybody came to the airport today, except tita mel, and uncle haw. But they have work so it's understandable. I feel like whenever I go somewhere the amount of people that come to the airport could fill an entire village, no joke. That's why I love my family! 

My awesome friends came to the airport today, too! Gonna miss those idiots so much over the next month. Tim, Tryphena, Clement & Jeremy thank you so much for coming to the airport today - you have no idea how much I appreciate it. But now I know you'll never be too far away, since you're all bitchin' on my ass on whatsapp, and i haven't even been gone for that long -.-

Oh well. Hahahaha, now i'm on Skype with my family who keep telling me about gay guys, and all that, and my dad asked me whether i've seen any hot asses yet HAHAHAHA. They're so retarded!

Gonna sign off now,
time to look for umm.. food :)

xxxxxx

Random update.

83 books in 5 months. (There may be slight spoilers)

I have (overly) indulged myself in a glorious amount of books over the past five months, eighty-three freaking books! Eighty-three! All of which I will be writing reviews for, so look out for the link to my review page within the next few weeks. I'm one of the most picky people you'll ever meet when it comes to YA books.

The one series that has captured my heart, and will always have a place in my heart, however, is Raine Thomas' Daughters of Saraqael trilogy. Oh. My. God. The action and romance fit so perfectly together, there's just the right amount of both in every book.

I do believe though that I am in love with every male in each book, they are just so perfect in their own way, as mysterious and as clueless as they are, every moment they spend with their loved ones always made me swoon. (I believe I squealed more than usual too)

Sighhh.. Why can't actual men be as amazing as Gabriel, James or Caleb?! WHY. The world is not fair.

Caleb will always be my favorite though. The struggles he has while coming to terms with how he feels for Skye, my heart literally clenched in pain for them both. :(

SO SOMEBODY, PLEASE BE MY CALEB, PLEASE. D:

Love,
Francine.

!

Swooooooooonnnn.

He stepped forward to close the distance between us as he rested his forehead against mine. "The only life I want is one with you. I don't understand this gap you see between us, but can't you meet me somewhere in the middle?"
"The middle of what?"
"I don't know, the middle of tomorrow and forever the middle of life and death, the middle of normal and paranormal. Where we've always been."
I bit my lip nodding against his forehead. "There's a place or us there, right?"
"Always." He put his lips to mine, sealing our own little spot in the world. Together.

Tomorrowland; a must do!

love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love!

Recientemente

Ciao!

So recently, after finally graduating from Pre-U and getting into University, I've been rather productive... for a change. I work at Shamrock Irish Pub every weeknight, either waitressing or bar tending. I am proud to say that I now know how to make a Margarita, Snakebite and.. well, a lot of other things :p

Even though the hours are insane and I reach home around 3:30 every morning, my eye bags are horrible, and my immune system has finally been pushed to it's limit - I have no regrets.

The people I've met (Joe, Noor, Ayang, Auntie Mel, Roque and Jonathan; to name a few) are amazing people. They really showed me the ropes, and made me feel like I was part of the family. Never failed to make me smile and laugh, no matter how horrible my day was prior to actually coming into work. I'm eternally grateful for them and I will, always, always, ALWAYS, remember what they've done for me. The way they'd always poke fun at me, and tease me about being "pretty", and everything really. As the end of my time at Shamrock draws to a close, I just wanted to reminisce about all the great times I've experienced.

All the times we'd end up in tears from laughing because of customers who hook up with white guys, and white guys only, or the times I end up with beer froth all over my face because the draft barrels run out of beer, and the times I end up on my ass because the rubber mats behind the bar get stuck underneath things while I'm trying to roll up the mats during closing. How you guys won't let me carry anything because you're scared that I become 'muscular' hahaha! Ahh so many lovely memories.

So if you guys ever by any chance stumble across this post, just know that i'll always remember all of you & all the good times we've had. I will be thinking of all of you from Spain!

On the topic of Spain,
I've enrolled with Estudio Hispanico, Madrid, for a language and culture course :) Will be leaving on the 11th of October from KK at 12:40pm, and i'm going to be sitting in KLIA for five hours before my connection to Doha.

Words cannot explain how excited I am for this trip, I'm going to use it to clear my mind, and to find myself again, if you believe in that kinda thing. Also the exposure gained will be absolutely amazing! :) MY FIRST TIME IN EUROPE!! Man, so psyched!

So... Basically that's all that's happened recently :)

Love,
Francine.

And I was there right beside him all summer long,

and then the time we woke up to find that summer had gone.

- Tim McGraw by Taylor Swift.

- Audrey Hepburn.

I believe in pink. 
I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. 
I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. 
I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. 
I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. 
I believe that tomorrow is another day 

and I believe in miracles.

true that, 54 days.

today's playlist:

1. Save the World Tonight - Swedish House Mafia
2. Have Faith in Me - A Day to Remember
3. Boys of Summer - Custom Kings
4. Misery - The Maine
5. Papi - Jennifer Lopez
6. You - The Pretty Reckless
7. Countdown - Jupiter One
8. We Are Golden - Mika
9. Call Your Name - Daughtry
10. But it's Better if You Do - Panic! At The Disco
11. Cosmic Love - Florence and the Machine
12. Dancefloor Anthem - Good Charlotte

:)

manifesto

Just like a mannequin, people are able to look pretty and fine on the outside, but do you really see what goes on inside? The myriad of emotions that cause turmoil within even the calmest of people. The insecurities that shroud even the most confident. The problems that smother even the happiest ones.

No, most of us fail to see past the display people put up.

Do not degrade a person for being the person they are, do not call them fat, or too skinny, or criticize them for being the person they were born to be. You never know how a playful comment can completely ruin a person.

If you have to do that to feel better about yourself, then you should know, you're one low motherfucker.

:)

peace & love.

You're not alone.

She's just like him 
Spoiled rotten 
Confused by the lies she's been fed 
And she's searching for no one.. 
But herself 
Her eyes turn to green and she seems to be happy 
That she is here 
And this time I think you'll know... 


 You're not alone 
There is more to this, I know 
You can make it out 
You will live to tell 


 You're not alone 
There is more to this, 
I know You can make it out.

Corinthians

Love is always patient and kind, it is never jealous. Love is never boastful nor conceited, it is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful.

What do you do when the one thing thats supposed to take you higher, starts to bring you down?

There's so much more than me and you.

Ancient history.

damn son, look what i just found. one of our KIS dances! honestly, I was just surfing through youtube & BAM! this one comes up out of all the billions of videos. Hahaha. So embarrassing, but it definitely brings back lots of good memories :)

Truth be spoken.

"Be that strong girl that everyone knew would make it through the worst, be that fearless girl who would dare to do anything, be that independent girl, who didn't need a man; 


be the girl who never backed down."

Summer!

well hello there, summer has officially begun!

 I'M ON FIREEEE, NOW I THINK I'M READY TO BUST-A-MOVE!

No more exams, graduation is over, and prom was a mere two days ago!
Ahh, this feeling is bliss - lots of things i've decided to do before I head off to uni in January.

1. Watch so many movies my eyeballs pop out.
2. Hit the gym and get fit again.
3. Party til I drop.
4. Be "one" with the sea/beach.
5. Spend as much time as I want reading.
6. Find a summer job :)
7. Go on a crazy ass shopping spree!

 AND ULTIMATELY,

 8. I'm going to find myself again. 

 Goodness, so many things to do, so little time! I hope all of you guys have a fabulous summer, as i'm sure as hell going to enjoy mine!

Lots of love!

Song of the day. </3

Conscious.

After looking through pictures, and long hours of comparison I have deduced the source of my unhappiness. For a long time I've not given a crap about how I look or whether I should apply make up whenever I go out, well... Here goes my useless rant/on-going battle with myself:

 - Why are my thighs so massive? I don't get it, I can't use a pair of shorts without feeling conscious about whether my fats are jiggling or whether I've got cellulite literally raping the under side of my legs.

 - My pimples are never ending, no matter what I do.

 - My hair is too short, or too straight, or too boring, or not flouncy and bouncy enough, or what if I look like shit when my hair grows out, cause I know my hair gets way too flat when it's long, and it's always such a boring color.

 - Generic eyebags. I've had them ever since I was a baby, to top that off I've got these lines under my eyes as well.

- My teeth aren't straight, I only have myself to blame for that - I didn't keep my braces on for longer, or whatever shit.

- My skin is never soft, they're either always really dry, or they're soft and shit before, then within hours it dries up again.

- I AM SHORT AS FUCK. I can't even get away with dresses nicely.

 I also have this issue with comparing myself with other people, who in my eyes are very pretty. It's like - 'why can't I look like that?' or.. 'what if he prefers girls who are like that?' AND in the worst case scenario I always end up questioning myself about my personality.

I'm not innocent, I don't sit at home and watch Korean dramas all day, I don't choose sleep over clubbing with friends, I don't walk into a club and just sit and watch everybody grind each other or dance like lunatics, I have more than one piercing, I swear... A LOT.

 Then there's the issue with not being able to speak any language other than english, or well.. I can't speak anything else fluently and all the other languages I actually understand or can speak aren't used in this country.

Then comes the case of 'shit, what if they don't like me?' or 'shit, what if i don't fit in?'

Ultimately, I always end up listening to other peoples opinions of me, I always tell myself that I really can't be fucked to pay attention to all the bullshit other people have said about me. But in reality, I do pay a lot of attention to shit like that, I try to make everybody happy, and ignore the things I want for myself, "you must have your hair like this." or.. "no you may not do that to your nails" or.. OH WHAT THE HELL. It's basically like I can't lead my own life no matter what I do. UGH.

 The most frustrating part of all this is, it's actually finally getting to me.

Almost 6.

The epitome of music.

Ever since their cover of Love Story/Viva La Vida, I could never get over the sincerity of the music these men play, they play from the soul, and their emotions ooze out of the songs they create. A beautiful melody entwined with passion. This moved me to tears.

BEST SHIT EVER.

Here's to exams.

With my finals just around the corner (about 6 days away), I haven't been able to find the time to write a proper blogpost, until today. On the examination note, I don't think I've ever explained to anyone how much of a pain in the derrière chemistry is. I feel my braincells sizzling and dying - very very slowly. Anywhos, I'm going to start doing my Past Year Papers very soon. I've done quite a few, but not to the extend that i'm completely confident with all the subjects. It's my boyfriend's birthday this Saturday - Not quite sure what to do for him, but still. Okay, I should probably go back to studying chemistry. Toodles, will pop in another blogpost whenever I can :) x

The science at hand.

Time: That point of the day where the sun is setting & its neither dark nor bright.
Mood: Ninja.

I feel like is been 134098502983098096749875108409238432 years since I last posted, I blame exams for that. Today was my last exam paper! It feels like five grains of rice have been lifted off my shoulders, reason for that is although trials are over, the real thing is about three weeks away D: I always get butterflies whenever I think about it. Gah.

Anywho's recently, other than studying my butt off, I've been doing nothing really. Watched movies with my boyfriend, & watched movies. Yeah. How unproductive can life get? Haha.

But last saturday, I celebrated my fourth monthsary - best shit ever. I had a fail study group with Bong & Tim, then towards the evening I got to spend quality time with my man ;) That didnt come without an almost heartbreak though... He took a nap and asked me to wake him up around 7. I think I called about 18 times, and he didnt pick up, yknow that feeling when you're looking forward to something and you get all worked up about it, but then something happens that makes your heart sink, and almost break, then the disappointment sets in, then you beat yourself up about being so dead set on something happening? Yeah. I got the complete cycle, THEN HE PICKED UP THE PHONE. I was slightly shocked, & extremely relieved, because the night ended up being very very nice.

We had dinner at Sugar Buns in Tanjung Aru, then moved over to Aru Bar, where I decided to be a hero and ordered a Mai Tai Twist. Dont get me wrong, it's an amazing drink, way too amazing actually... I find myself craving it nearly all the time. HAHAHA. FML. I aint no alcoholic, foo. But it's so damn good.

And sometime this week, tim and I went to McD's and got high on food or something. I tried to teach him to burp on purpose, but.. he failed miserably. And then he went "burp", I got excited, only to realise it was an actual burp. Ugh. What a waste of my excitement.

Okay, I think i'm going to go and watch Bones now :) So excited to watch the season finale! ♥

ta.

The Land Down Under.

Trample.

Mom and Dad are coming back from Mexico tomorrow, and here I am at home, in my over sized shirt and sweat pants with my hair in the messiest little bun it could possibly be in.

I think it's sunk in that when they come back, my freedom goes down the drain, along with everything else. But the cinema's seriously have uber shitty timing. All the movies I want to watch are coming out before and during my exams. ALL THE MOTHERFUCKING MOVIES. Whazzis!!?!?

Anywho's I really do think i'm getting really REALLY REALLY sick. This isn't good :(
Blahblahblah, I really dont know what to write now HAHAHAHA. Okay, i'm going to go on a random picture posting spree again :)

kbai.

I don't need a perfect one, I just need someone who can make me feel that i'm the only one.

:')

Just remembered.

I want a day that'll turn out right; a myriad of colours creating a wonderous light. I wanna see what has never been heard, secrets veiled by an undying world. When flames rain down from heaven; you'll be wishing for 11:11. As fog smothers your dissonant thoughts; memories remind you of what you sought. We'll take hate-blinded kids to find their wings; and from the gates above, angels sing. We'd study just to prove a lie, the concept of infinity, before we die. As palm trees sway in the breeze, the autumn skies overhead start to freeze. rip your world apart just to find your face; the broken mirrors uncover your grace. I'd love to take off into eternity, with masks of gold, an unseen identity. We'd scream our silent wishes into starry skies; under the crescent moon, stare into each others eyes. Lets face this world, without fear; with everyday that passes, the end draws near. We'll speak those words unspoken, and heal all hearts who've broken. As the seas rise, the thunder'll chime, heaven and hell will meet, for the very last time. through heavenly chaos, i'll still stand my ground, 'cause i'm unstoppable with you around.

Futsal

Just to kill the mood, I decided to add this one!

:3

Here are a few shots i've taken from my futsal shots, and edited.

Amazing friends, and boyfriend;

wouldn't ask for more :)

- F

So mote it be.

Informative.

The eye-catching swimming pool in Mumbai, India, has been built to raise awareness about the threat of sea level rises as a result of global warming. It was constructed by attaching a giant aerial photograph of the New York City skyline to the floor of the pool.

The idea was conceived by advertising agency Ogilvy & Mather, who were commissioned by banking giant HSBC to promote its £50million project tackling climate change. The Ogilvy team came up with an innovative way to show the adverse impact of global climate change.

They glued an aerial view of a city to the base of a swimming pool. When the pool was filled with water, it gave a shocking effect akin to a city submerged in water. The visual of a sunken city shocked swimmers and onlookers, driving home the impact of global warming, and how it could destroy our world someday.

RAGE.

Why is it that whenever I want to study, something always decides to pop up and ruin my mood? Please explain to me. PLEASE.

FUCK.

Nothing is more comfy than your boyfriend's jacket :)

I can use this one as a dress!

I love oversized jackets, but the sentimental value to this one is just off the grid.

:)

love, love, love.

Warning: You may be offended.. If you think it's about you.

I may come off a little, just a little, blunt in this post, but I’m done sugar coating everything. Possibly because my hormones are a little off-balance right now, but I really dgaf.

FIRSTLY, I have no idea why everybody has this expectation of me to be able to spend every single waking moment with them, and manage to reply to their texts (when my phone is barred) and I have no fucking 3G connection, (BECAUSE MY PHONE IS BARRED) so what on earth makes you think I can reply to your whatsapp messages? What part of “my phone is barred” do you not understand?! Jeebus.

SECONDLY, my life – is as packed as it could possibly be, so I do not know how to manage my time any more than I already have. You don’t make plans with me, IN ADVANCED, do not expect me to be able to go yum cha and what shit, because at the moment, everything I have that doesn’t include school, sports carnival or my excessive amounts of tuition and studying, is on a first-come-first-serve basis.

THIRDLY, I am not an object. No, you may not talk about me like I am an inanimate object. I breathe, eat, burp, sleep, shit, pee, and everything else that comes with being alive. So no, I do not enjoy being referred to as “that one la” or “that thing la”.

FOURTHLY, I don’t care who you are, or what your reasons are, for being a complete asshole. I did not do anything to you, yes, I have a boyfriend, but that does not mean you get to treat me, or anyone else for that matter, like shit. I have my reasons for not being able to go out, so deal with it.

FIFTHLY, all these fucking bastards who walk around like they rule the earth; DINOSAURS ruled the earth first, maybe I’m missing something like, you have a secret dino-identity, (psht yeah right) then sorry man, you seem to have time-travelled into the wrong fucking era. We have proper curtains now, banana leaves went out of fashion a long time ago, honey.

I would probably go on and on about how selfish and self-absorbed people are but I just realized I’m wasting my time writing this when I could be doing something better, like studying.

Yeah, that’s pretty much a month’s worth of pent up ranting.
I’m pretty surprised at how little I wrote.

Yay.

Studies.

I’ve come to a point where all I want to do is sleep. I don’t know what the cause is, maybe I’m majorly deprived of the recommended 7-9 hours, or maybe I’m its just my body’s way of rejecting the much needed hours of studying I need. But today I came home around 5:30pm and all I did was lie in bed and listen to music with my eyes closed. No, I couldn’t fall asleep, though even if I wanted to I could’ve. Oh god, what’s wrong with me?

On the bright side, today’s business test was good. I could actually answer all the questions, but for the essay I’m not 100% confident I actually managed to get all the points, as my answers for the advantages were slightly on the vague side. Oh well, I guess when we actually get the papers back then I’ll figure out how well I did. My fingers are crossed beyond contortion. I really, really, want this to be good. No. I need this to be good.

Progress Tests are coming up in about two days, and I’m freaking the fuck out because I don’t think I have sufficient enough time to thoroughly cover all the topics coming out for all subjects. Man, am I screwed or am I screwed? I must find a way though, maybe after writing this blog post I’ll take out my chemistry book again. If you want to know just how ridiculous my chemistry lecturer is when it comes to setting tests, here are the topics coming out:

- Benzene

- Methylbenzene

- Transition Elements

- Group Four Elements

- THE ENTIRE FUCKING APPLICATION OF CHEMISTRY BOOK.

True story, bro.

Biology’s on the okay side, I actually understood everything my lecturer was teaching during the lectures, I’m not sure whether it’s just my brain refusing to understand Chemistry because of the pure hatred I have for my lecturer, or maybe I just don’t get it. At all. Nevertheless, I must find a way, since everybody doesn’t seem to think I can actually pass these exams, just give me a goddamned PASS. I’m not asking for much, just a PASS. Please? Kthxbai.

Yep, now I’m panicking, gonna go rape my chem book now.

Goodnight, all!
I hope you all had a better day than I did.

PS. Only 78 days left.

J

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epic shit right there.

Hi, can I have your top please?

yes it does. please wait for me, bright lights & big dreams <3

Why can't i be pretty like her? WHY. WHYYYYYYYY GRRARRR

yes, baby. you know it does :)

A good blogpost(?)

I'm getting pretty good at this staying at home and studying 85% of the day. Yes, I spent quality time with Business Studies and straight after that I rushed in to do Biology. God, i'm such a player. But no, really. I did some hardcore studying today, which makes me feel 101% satisfied with myself.

Managed to go out for a while this afternoon, met up with baby & we went to city mall to get his phone bill paid, then to Lintas so he could go unsuccessfully bank in his money... While I got my daily dose of Yoyo. Mmmm, croissants. *drools*

Okay anyway, I came home around 4 and started studying again, until the Manchester United vs Norwich match. Tim came over :3 and we watched the match with my sister. Lots of good laughs here and there. AND AND AND Manchester United won 2-1 ;) Woots.

I cannot express how thankful I am that my sister actually gets along with my boyfriend. I mean, I honestly couldn't ask for more in life right now.

I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world, who pushes me to be the best I can be, who motivates me, who knows all my flaws and still loves me, and so much more. NOW, my sister and my boyfriend get along as well! :3 ngehehehe.

Life is so good right now, why couldn't it have been this good a long loooong time ago?

Oh well.

Overall, t'was a brilliant day, going to go and read communication in business organisations, again. :) Once, Doctor Jones by Aqua stops playing on my iTunes, cause well.. Nothing beats Danish bubblegum pop songs. Hahaha.

---

Sometimes, the feeling is right

You fall in love for the first time

Heartbeat, and kisses so sweet

Summertime love in the moonlight

Ah-yippie-yi-yu

Ah-yippie-yi-yeah

Ah-yippie-yi-yu-ah

just thought i'd share the fun.

;)

Will you be my valentine? pt. 2

So where was I on this post?

I believe I left off at the part where I said I made a short video for my boyfriend. :) Yes, that's what I did. Haha. I felt absolutely stupid with my uncountable amount of paper noted, and it only took five tries at recording the video perfectly. And once I edited and put in the music and everything, my iMovie crashed. Yep. That's what the son of a bitch did. It crashed. And I lost everything, all the editing, the transitions, the music... EVERYTHING.

The only person who saw how stressed I was once that happened was Tryphena. Cause I was on Skype with her. Hahahaha. Yeah, so Try, if you're reading this, I'm sorry for my stressing out. But I did get everything done in the end, not as nice as I wanted it to be, but - yeah, make do with what time you have left.

I had an awfully hard time trying to give it to him though. It's like, I couldn't grow a pair, and whatever pair I had just suddenly disappeared. And y'know what? He surprised me by giving me the awesomest valentine's day present ever. A ZIPPO! :3 intact with customized engravings and errthang :) Thanks, baby!

And yeah, I went to watch a movie with him after school, and after sending him home & getting home, I had about an hour, maybe less, to get ready to go out again. We spent the evening at Tg. Aru, SugarbunS! yes, with the 'S' at the end, so not one, but two buns :3 ngehehe.

We talked about everything and anything - just like we used to. And had an uber heart-to-heart, which was much needed.

Couldn't have asked for a better valentine, to be honest.

I love you, syg.

And I know you'll read this, so i'ma let you know that ever since you became part of my life, you've made me realize everything that I have and you've made me a better person.

FORREALS, BRO.

:) Hahaha.

Yes, I ruined a totally intense moment... I suck at being romantic, I guess that's why I have him! He's the perfect balance for me, and I wouldn't ask for anything better.

Cause I've already got the best.

xxxx

Well-Balanced.

Recently, i've been doing a lot of studying because

a) A2 Exams are in three months

b) I've a lot to catch up with in Business

c) Progress tests are on wednesday

d) I'm retaking all my subjects

So yeah, that's the story of my life. Haha. But apart from that, yesterday I went to watch Sabah play against Malaysia, a good game, definitely, Malaysia won 1-0 but Sabah put up a great fight as well. Brendan Gan & Michael Baird, my two official favorite players. <3

full house, first time ever i've seen the stadium so packed.

Anywho, today I spent majority of the day at home, doing laundry, ironing my uniforms for school on monday & studying. Yes, business test. I am going to kick your papery ass. I'm done revising for it already, so tomorrow i'm going to sit at my desk and answer all the case studies and end of chapter questions :)

I feel like i've finally gotten to a point where my life is well-balanced;

studies, home life, school life and social life.

sleep, as usual, i'm deprived of, but it'll all be worth it in the end, i hope. But it's the other stuff that i'm actually really in need of, like maintaining my hair and getting my eyebrows shaped, all the non-important shit. But I reckon I can hold that off until after the exams, who am I trying to look pretty for anyway?

Spent the evening at up2u, initially with Jerry & Eddy, then Nick, Bong, Kee and Cassandra came.. AND FINALLY, Tim showed up :3 yay. My day is officially complete. My baby came over after that and we watched the Chelsea vs. Bolton game.

And now i'm here in my room, on my bed, in the aircon, at war with a mosquito, typing this blogpost. I should probably go take a shower, I feel rather sticky from the awful humidity at up2u.

Shall continue blogging later :)