Warning: You may be offended.. If you think it's about you.

I may come off a little, just a little, blunt in this post, but I’m done sugar coating everything. Possibly because my hormones are a little off-balance right now, but I really dgaf.

FIRSTLY, I have no idea why everybody has this expectation of me to be able to spend every single waking moment with them, and manage to reply to their texts (when my phone is barred) and I have no fucking 3G connection, (BECAUSE MY PHONE IS BARRED) so what on earth makes you think I can reply to your whatsapp messages? What part of “my phone is barred” do you not understand?! Jeebus.

SECONDLY, my life – is as packed as it could possibly be, so I do not know how to manage my time any more than I already have. You don’t make plans with me, IN ADVANCED, do not expect me to be able to go yum cha and what shit, because at the moment, everything I have that doesn’t include school, sports carnival or my excessive amounts of tuition and studying, is on a first-come-first-serve basis.

THIRDLY, I am not an object. No, you may not talk about me like I am an inanimate object. I breathe, eat, burp, sleep, shit, pee, and everything else that comes with being alive. So no, I do not enjoy being referred to as “that one la” or “that thing la”.

FOURTHLY, I don’t care who you are, or what your reasons are, for being a complete asshole. I did not do anything to you, yes, I have a boyfriend, but that does not mean you get to treat me, or anyone else for that matter, like shit. I have my reasons for not being able to go out, so deal with it.

FIFTHLY, all these fucking bastards who walk around like they rule the earth; DINOSAURS ruled the earth first, maybe I’m missing something like, you have a secret dino-identity, (psht yeah right) then sorry man, you seem to have time-travelled into the wrong fucking era. We have proper curtains now, banana leaves went out of fashion a long time ago, honey.

I would probably go on and on about how selfish and self-absorbed people are but I just realized I’m wasting my time writing this when I could be doing something better, like studying.

Yeah, that’s pretty much a month’s worth of pent up ranting.
I’m pretty surprised at how little I wrote.

Yay.

Studies.

I’ve come to a point where all I want to do is sleep. I don’t know what the cause is, maybe I’m majorly deprived of the recommended 7-9 hours, or maybe I’m its just my body’s way of rejecting the much needed hours of studying I need. But today I came home around 5:30pm and all I did was lie in bed and listen to music with my eyes closed. No, I couldn’t fall asleep, though even if I wanted to I could’ve. Oh god, what’s wrong with me?

On the bright side, today’s business test was good. I could actually answer all the questions, but for the essay I’m not 100% confident I actually managed to get all the points, as my answers for the advantages were slightly on the vague side. Oh well, I guess when we actually get the papers back then I’ll figure out how well I did. My fingers are crossed beyond contortion. I really, really, want this to be good. No. I need this to be good.

Progress Tests are coming up in about two days, and I’m freaking the fuck out because I don’t think I have sufficient enough time to thoroughly cover all the topics coming out for all subjects. Man, am I screwed or am I screwed? I must find a way though, maybe after writing this blog post I’ll take out my chemistry book again. If you want to know just how ridiculous my chemistry lecturer is when it comes to setting tests, here are the topics coming out:

- Benzene

- Methylbenzene

- Transition Elements

- Group Four Elements

- THE ENTIRE FUCKING APPLICATION OF CHEMISTRY BOOK.

True story, bro.

Biology’s on the okay side, I actually understood everything my lecturer was teaching during the lectures, I’m not sure whether it’s just my brain refusing to understand Chemistry because of the pure hatred I have for my lecturer, or maybe I just don’t get it. At all. Nevertheless, I must find a way, since everybody doesn’t seem to think I can actually pass these exams, just give me a goddamned PASS. I’m not asking for much, just a PASS. Please? Kthxbai.

Yep, now I’m panicking, gonna go rape my chem book now.

Goodnight, all!
I hope you all had a better day than I did.

PS. Only 78 days left.

J

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epic shit right there.

Hi, can I have your top please?

yes it does. please wait for me, bright lights & big dreams <3

Why can't i be pretty like her? WHY. WHYYYYYYYY GRRARRR

yes, baby. you know it does :)

A good blogpost(?)

I'm getting pretty good at this staying at home and studying 85% of the day. Yes, I spent quality time with Business Studies and straight after that I rushed in to do Biology. God, i'm such a player. But no, really. I did some hardcore studying today, which makes me feel 101% satisfied with myself.

Managed to go out for a while this afternoon, met up with baby & we went to city mall to get his phone bill paid, then to Lintas so he could go unsuccessfully bank in his money... While I got my daily dose of Yoyo. Mmmm, croissants. *drools*

Okay anyway, I came home around 4 and started studying again, until the Manchester United vs Norwich match. Tim came over :3 and we watched the match with my sister. Lots of good laughs here and there. AND AND AND Manchester United won 2-1 ;) Woots.

I cannot express how thankful I am that my sister actually gets along with my boyfriend. I mean, I honestly couldn't ask for more in life right now.

I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world, who pushes me to be the best I can be, who motivates me, who knows all my flaws and still loves me, and so much more. NOW, my sister and my boyfriend get along as well! :3 ngehehehe.

Life is so good right now, why couldn't it have been this good a long loooong time ago?

Oh well.

Overall, t'was a brilliant day, going to go and read communication in business organisations, again. :) Once, Doctor Jones by Aqua stops playing on my iTunes, cause well.. Nothing beats Danish bubblegum pop songs. Hahaha.

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Sometimes, the feeling is right

You fall in love for the first time

Heartbeat, and kisses so sweet

Summertime love in the moonlight

Ah-yippie-yi-yu

Ah-yippie-yi-yeah

Ah-yippie-yi-yu-ah

just thought i'd share the fun.

;)

Will you be my valentine? pt. 2

So where was I on this post?

I believe I left off at the part where I said I made a short video for my boyfriend. :) Yes, that's what I did. Haha. I felt absolutely stupid with my uncountable amount of paper noted, and it only took five tries at recording the video perfectly. And once I edited and put in the music and everything, my iMovie crashed. Yep. That's what the son of a bitch did. It crashed. And I lost everything, all the editing, the transitions, the music... EVERYTHING.

The only person who saw how stressed I was once that happened was Tryphena. Cause I was on Skype with her. Hahahaha. Yeah, so Try, if you're reading this, I'm sorry for my stressing out. But I did get everything done in the end, not as nice as I wanted it to be, but - yeah, make do with what time you have left.

I had an awfully hard time trying to give it to him though. It's like, I couldn't grow a pair, and whatever pair I had just suddenly disappeared. And y'know what? He surprised me by giving me the awesomest valentine's day present ever. A ZIPPO! :3 intact with customized engravings and errthang :) Thanks, baby!

And yeah, I went to watch a movie with him after school, and after sending him home & getting home, I had about an hour, maybe less, to get ready to go out again. We spent the evening at Tg. Aru, SugarbunS! yes, with the 'S' at the end, so not one, but two buns :3 ngehehe.

We talked about everything and anything - just like we used to. And had an uber heart-to-heart, which was much needed.

Couldn't have asked for a better valentine, to be honest.

I love you, syg.

And I know you'll read this, so i'ma let you know that ever since you became part of my life, you've made me realize everything that I have and you've made me a better person.

FORREALS, BRO.

:) Hahaha.

Yes, I ruined a totally intense moment... I suck at being romantic, I guess that's why I have him! He's the perfect balance for me, and I wouldn't ask for anything better.

Cause I've already got the best.

xxxx

Well-Balanced.

Recently, i've been doing a lot of studying because

a) A2 Exams are in three months

b) I've a lot to catch up with in Business

c) Progress tests are on wednesday

d) I'm retaking all my subjects

So yeah, that's the story of my life. Haha. But apart from that, yesterday I went to watch Sabah play against Malaysia, a good game, definitely, Malaysia won 1-0 but Sabah put up a great fight as well. Brendan Gan & Michael Baird, my two official favorite players. <3

full house, first time ever i've seen the stadium so packed.

Anywho, today I spent majority of the day at home, doing laundry, ironing my uniforms for school on monday & studying. Yes, business test. I am going to kick your papery ass. I'm done revising for it already, so tomorrow i'm going to sit at my desk and answer all the case studies and end of chapter questions :)

I feel like i've finally gotten to a point where my life is well-balanced;

studies, home life, school life and social life.

sleep, as usual, i'm deprived of, but it'll all be worth it in the end, i hope. But it's the other stuff that i'm actually really in need of, like maintaining my hair and getting my eyebrows shaped, all the non-important shit. But I reckon I can hold that off until after the exams, who am I trying to look pretty for anyway?

Spent the evening at up2u, initially with Jerry & Eddy, then Nick, Bong, Kee and Cassandra came.. AND FINALLY, Tim showed up :3 yay. My day is officially complete. My baby came over after that and we watched the Chelsea vs. Bolton game.

And now i'm here in my room, on my bed, in the aircon, at war with a mosquito, typing this blogpost. I should probably go take a shower, I feel rather sticky from the awful humidity at up2u.

Shall continue blogging later :)

Will you be my valentine?

So valentine's day has come and gone :) most of you know what I did, but i'm gonna write about it anyways.

The few days leading up to Valentine's Day were pretty hectic, I had to balance my studies with my EB stuff, and on top of that I had to accomplish my "mission." (which i did do btw!) Thanks to Tryphena & Nikki, for helping me with my nerves and watching me stress out for absolutely no reason :) and to Bong, for the endless "YOU CAN DO IT!"s hahaha.

I made a sort of short but long video for my lovely boyfriend. Coincidentally, on valentine's it was also our two months and one week. :)

aaaaaannddd.. i will continue this post another time.

i just lost all motivation and/or drive to write this blogpost.

holy god of motherfucks.

UGH

Find me, here in your arms x

The Fray

I may not have the softest touch,

I may not say the words as such;

And though I may not look like much,

I'm yours.

HACKED 8.2.12

Hi my name is Tim. Fran is a alcoholic PMS queen. truth to be told ;)

& I can't breathe without you, but I have to.

Yes.

It's funny how being a pin-up model/girl, has become such a big thing worldwide.

I've always wanted to have at least one shot that made it through - but my priorities changed :) Plus now, with the boyfriend, I doubt he'll be allowing :p heh. Cause he's loving and protective like that.

Honestly, its sad how such a simple thing has turned into a sexual "thing", girls have become so much more... promiscuous when it comes to taking pictures. It used to be a form of art, something to hang on your walls, and enjoy looking at.

But, oh well.

:)

01.02.2012

Please be nice to me.
Please keep all those close to my heart safe & happy, cause they deserve the best in life.
Please give us the strength to carry on when everything seems impossible.

Sincerely,
Me.

I'm everything you can't control.

I finally managed to tell my dad my results.. Was just as I expected, I guess.

No more going out, no more birthday parties, no more clubbing, no study groups, no sleepovers, no going out for lunch after school, no nothing. This should be insanely fun.

Hello, coffee, late nights & eyebags.

:(