1.

Never expect anything,
because with expectation
comes disappointment.

So to save yourself the heartache,
try to just go with the flow.

"My heart is not cold, it's broken."

Underworld was one of the best movies i've seen within the last few months :)

Two Thumbs Up!

twenty 2, twenty 3 and part of twenty 4.

Firstly, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!

Xin Nian Kuai Le!

I hope everybody has a wonderful new year, filled with prosperity, in every aspect of the word. May all your tummies be blessed with glorious food & grow to the absolute potential it may become.

Chinese New Year Eve has definitely got to be my favorite time of the year, we started off with yee sang; which confused me because, being the wonderful mixed chinese person I am, I thought the dish was only served during Chap Goh Mei, (probably spelt wrong, again) but oh well - if I get to eat it twice, does that mean I get double the long life? :P

Moving on to the main course, there were about 12 different dishes, ranging from yam & pork, to sotong belacan (don't ask) allllll the way to butter prawns :3 the most amazing meal, EVER. I think I'll be putting on weight over the one week break, cause all I ever seem to do is eat & eat & eat. teehee.

To add a little pinoy flair to the dinner, we concluded with pastillas & leche plan.

OH I LOVE BEING MIX RACED.

Omnomnomnomnomnomnomnom.

The night went on and then, it was FIREWORKS TIME! The happiest moment of my life. I love love love love love fireworks, if you gave me a choice between clubbing & just sitting on the lawn watching fireworks light up the sky, i'd choose the latter. Any day, anytime.

After everything ended, I went to Salim to meet up with the guys to watch Manchester United play Arsenal. And as expected, United won :) yayers. best first day of CNY, EVER.

Today, I went for breakfast at Dynasty, Promenade Hotel with my family. Where I got asked to marry a chinese guy, because... Well just because, they said it "suited me". Well no, it wasn't exactly so well put it was more like:

"Si francine kahwin orang apa this?"

"Mesti kahwin orang cina. Memang dia punya style tu."

"Oh, bah bah! NGAM LA THAT."

... Just a reminder, i'm frickin 18, I'm not going to get married any time soon, I enjoy collecting my ang pau's, thank you very much.

Sigh, family.

:P

Then I went out with Tim, & after that - I had a dinner/tea thing at my uncle's house. I absolutely miss living at the peak, I miss air-conditioned houses & not having to worry if the side grills of my house are closed and locked.

Which actually reminds me, I really honestly want to live in an apartment, a studio apartment would be more than perfect :) Or just any apartment really.

After that, another dinner.

Around 9:30 my syg picked me up, and we went to upper star to meet up with Tim's friends :) woot. And now i'm back home, snuggled under my blankets & surrounded by a fort of pillows.

Absolute bliss.

Maybe I should go to sleep, cause I'm falling asleep while writing this. I'll post pictures of recent events here soon :)

Goodnight, lovelies <3

Have a wonderful holiday,

party hard,

work not so hard,

& eat tons!

Love,

F

PS: Eric, if you're reading this - I'll write your dedication post soon, like.. Tomorrow morning! :)

When you're too in love to let it go.

Current replay.

I can barely breathe.

When thunder chimes through the desolate room,
snow continues to fall on snow, as the night hums.
Where you once ran to hide from the silence,
no longer a refuge for the aching heart.

You wrap your arms around yourself,
to imitate the security you once felt.
But nothing adds up, nothing compares,
so you continue to search for answers.

Think back to a time where everything,
everything seemed so perfect.
Now just a faint watermark,
upon the splattered canvas, that is your life.

So you do what you do best;
you up and run, with every ounce of energy.
And as you turn,
you take your heart and walk away.

stop stop stop talkin' that, blah blah blah.

hello, errbody!

This is the first time i'm blogging off a computer that isnt my own, it feels kinda weird, but oh well :) January's been good to me, so far.

Been really productive in school, with all the EB stuff, recruiting Year 1 EB's, election day preparation and so on and so forth. Actually, I think January's brought me the most ups and downs & taught me more about myself and how to handle things better.

And well, studying's been taking up a lot of my time, hence, the whole not writing/blogging/posting videos and shit. And all that paid off today :) I managed to get pretty high marks on my chemistry quiz, and even though it doesnt really mean shiet, it still means that i'm getting closer and closer to the top. (which, is where i need to be)

Anyway, i think i just got my cue to leave this house. So I guess i'll be going.

Goodbye, for now.

Extra! Extra!

Oh, I almost forgot to mention, I cut my fringe :)
Not entirely satisfied, but we'll see how it sits tmrw morning.

Loving, F
xxo

TOP 4 OF THE DAY.

thanks to my wonderful bestfriend/boyfriend/retard,
my extremely shitty day is no longer shitty :)

Yes, we're perfectly normal.

-

Thank you so much for coming over after tuition,
I really needed the company.
& thank you for always, always having my back <3
Lots 'o love
:)

Words fail me, when it comes to expressing how happy I am :)

And I'm feeling like the luckiest girl alive.

Amazing, just.. amazing.

Words just fail me.
Holy wow.

lovelovelovelove.

end of 2011 - early 2012 (:

vanity isn't a crime.

Love,

F

(:

I'm no longer your muse.

All this money cant buy me a time machine,
cant replace you with a million rings.
I should've told you what you meant to me,
cause now I pay the price.

In another life, I would be your girl,
we'd keep all our promises,
it'd be us against the world.
In another life, I would make you stay,
so I don't have to say, you were,
"the one that got away."

I really have nothing much to say, other than i think colourful, very much. (:

Two More Days :)

Have you ever had one of those days, where you just dont feel like talking very much? Yeah, I've been having lots of those recently - I'd rather just sit quietly and listen to people talk. (even if they speak in chinese, whichidonotunderstandforthelifeofmebecauseitsjustreallycomplicated.) Reason being, I dont really have much to talk about... I know, I know. It's a miracle, normally people would need to wrestle me to the ground to get me to shut up.

But today was an alright day, pretty much the usual, classes, free periods, breaks & illegal area time and I fell asleep in chemistry! teehee. Bet y'all couldn't tell :p

I spent about an hour with the sayang, before I had to send him home so he could get ready for futsal, I didnt go today though, and I feel rather guilty, but oh well :) All I need to know is that they won, and that's close enough to being good enough... I guess. But that was a really bad sentence so fk itttttt.

Mkay, I'm off to probably kill myself with amazing music, again.

I will be back :)

:')

Cause I can't make you love me, If you don't.

- Bon Iver

Pretty much sums up how I feel.

Seems like I was walking in the wrong direction
I barely recognize my own reflection, no
Scared of love but scared of life alone

Seems I've been playing on the safe side baby
Building walls around my heart to save me, oh
But it's time for me to let it go

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I afraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again

Just when we think that love will never find you
You runaway but still it's right behind you, oh
It's just something that you can't control

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I afraid of the fall down
It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready to love again

So come and find me
I'll be waiting up for you
I'll be holding out for you tonight

Yeah, I'm ready to feel now
No longer am I afraid of the fall down

It must be time to move on now
Without the fear of how it might end
I guess I'm ready, I'm ready to love again

2012

Hello, 2012!

You started with one hella crazy night, and so far you've been amazing, please stay this way :)

So the first few days of school were alright, been caught up with orientation stuff, and EB shtuff as well. I had a miniature heart attack last night when we were told we needed to give a presentation.. yeah. no. NO. I'm horrible at public speaking. Heh.

Anywhoooooos, went to futsal today with my baby & the guys, was a really good match. Had very fucked up conversations with Bong, Bernard & Fam... something to do with shitting while smoking? and being able to pleasure yourself if you had a penis and a vagina :/ Oh mon dieu.

They won though :) OH OH OH! I got my EB name tag today :3 teehee. The SC promotional video was really funny, kudos to Emery and Darren for taking the time and effort into making it!

I've been catching up with all the recent music, very satisfied with all the downloads i've made so far.

Long time lovin',

F