Guess what I just found?

You guys should really check it out, its one of my posts from before:

http://lightsandmadness.blogspot.com/2011/05/4.html

I believe that everybody who goes through life, heartbreak after another, should read this; because this, just made me happy - even after everything.

Never, ever, give up.

Let people talk all they want, let them think whatever they want of you, all that matters at the end of the day is what you think of yourself.

Love yourself before any other. Live life for you and you only. Stop looking for happiness, let it find you.

I'm not depressed. I swear.

I hate that feeling when you randomly feel depressed. There is no warning, no apparent reason. It just happens. You feel empty, and you feel hopeless. And you just feel tired. As if you never want to move again. Then when someone asks you what's wrong, you can't say because there is nothing that comes to mind. Then you start thinking of what it could be, and you realize just how much is wrong. You know that feeling? Yeah, it sucks.

- that's true though.

New beginning.

So as an update i'll put everything into bullet form

- i've started tuition

- shaved one side of my head

- got my belly pierced (though that was forever ago)
- been studying my ass off

- environmental day is on saturday

- yap ka liong is back <3

- lotsa bitching

- i'm single, yes, single.

- started painting again

- started writing again, too.

So, where do I start with all of this;

Tuition - yes, freaking math tuition, everyday of the week. It's not too bad, but sometimes i really just want to go back home after school and crash on my bed, because it's just THAT much more appealing than having to keep my brain on until 6pm everyday.

And as for shaving my head, HAHAHAHAHA, okay it was kinda a bet gone wrong. Plus it was one of those "i'm really not giving a shit anymore, lets just get this over and done with!" But i havent regretted it, yet. Dont think i'll be regretting though, it's hair. Hair grows. Life goes on.

Single.

I love that word, dont you? I mean, yeah - i'm single. But it doesnt mean I'm over him. Or anything. It's just.. things didnt work out. As much as it hurts, I have to move on.. Because waiting on him is like waiting for rain in a desert. (WOAH MOVIE QUOTE RIGHT THERE) HEEHEE. Oh well, if it really was meant to be then maybe later on smth will happen, but for now. I'll just hang on to the good times, and forget the bad.

:) i'll have you know that i miss you, and every day that i see you, hurts, but knowing you're alright, that keeps me going.

Oh mon dieu, i'm not going to bother writing about everything.

Gonna continue downloading more videos for the environmental day thing on saturday (: